i finally got money! lol. anyway i finally know what is like to earn money and not asking for money. *laughs. i got $77.50 for a two day work from 5pm-11pm. it's quite late, but at least i'm fortunate that my father fetches me after work. hahas. xiao ling's quite jealous that i have transport home. :D the money i treated my mum to a restaurant, Just Noodles, in suntec city. spent around at least $20 then i even gave my dad $20 for dinner.. he even feels a bit embarrassed because people around us are like looking at us. :) my mum says that it's a good thing because he will not rely on us for money and not do anything to support the family....anyway my mum has been asking me the reason for working but i don't really know the reason. the only thing i know is that i want to also contribute to the family. is that a good thing? i don't know. :p

i've always thought that work was easy for a waitress. in fact it's not easy at all. my friend introduced me to a job in pan pacific hotel as a banquet waitress. i thought it may be fun and i can also earn some money when awaiting my results for the 'O's. i heard the pay's quite good : $6/hr. quite good, huh? maybe it's the pay that attracted me to this job. so i agreed with my friend that we can find a time for the interview. one day the person-in-charge called me during red camp to tell me that there will a training on 24th from 2pm-10pm. i was already so lethargic from the red camp organised by ngee ann polytechnic from 21st nov-23d nov. wow! this is the only word i can describe red camp. :) all i can say is that it rocks,man! i belong to the apaches which represents the so-called "little indians". we went to a lot of places in the polytechnic itself. as for me, i love going to the health sciences school because i would like to be a health professional in future. enough said about the red camp but if there's a camp you have to go, i would say it's red camp...
anyway back to the topic of job, i went for the training then the trainer, Ramli, said we will have a work attachment almost immediately because orientation is only about an hour. we took a tour around pan pacific hotel and some of us were quite amazed to see the insights of the grand outside of the hotel. it's really an eye-opener for some of us who came out to work for the 1st time. hahas. including me. this is 1st time i come out to work as my mum says that i should spend more time on studying. now, 'O' level's over so i can really try to work for the 1st time! lol. i look forward to it actually. :D

have you ever had a feeling of being left out?

well, i had. i was quite naive to think that i will not have this feeling when i get into secondary school. but i still get them when i'm with them. i'm, in fact, very tired of this feeling because i've been getting this feeling since the day i stepped into primary school. really feel like crying sometimes. the most frustrated thing is that whenever i try to talk to them, they always try to ignore me or pretend to talk among themselves. why? i mean, why must they do that to me? i always try to be good to them but they are still like that and when they are finished, they even pretended nothing had happened! they even asked me what had happened. what would i say? of course i say nothing happened. i really feel sad because they always act like BIG SISTER. uh-huh. **puke.