went out with rachel, haley and kristin
didn't want to go to school
so watch a movie at vivocity

Juno.

that's the show..

quite nice..
talking about us,teenagers, indirectly about having premarital sex
though they were still in high school..
but the cool part is that she's only 16 and she can drive!!

cool!!!

how i wish i could do that..
but i'm not in usa..

then after the movie we went shopping..
but haley went to meet her friend at bugis..

so we accompanied her to the mrt and we continued shopping..
went to the arcade and played pool..
got addicted instantly..

that's like my first time playing, but soon i get the hang of it...

sooooooooo nice...

just that the skills like run in my blood..
so i can 'naturally' play... :D

but i know i suck at it..

so i probably need more practice in future... (:
anyway i kind of found a job at popular...
now still waiting for them to call me..
let's just hope i can get this job.. (:

went back to school today
only 13 people out of 23 people came.
heard from sara that only 3 people came to school on chinese new year eve.
*shakes head
then the attendance yesterday was 9?? yupps..
break our own record..
heard from our teachers that our class used to have the best attendance
but now?
look at our attendance....(:


honestly this PAE period is damn boring..
teachers don't really care
now many are withdrawing from school..


anyway the ya sui qian my classmates got were quite good
some got around $500 or so
some got $900.. ^^
wow...so envious.
just hope next year will be a better and richer year.. (:

finally got a nike jacket at queensway.
2nd day of chinese new year,
the only pitiful ya sui qian i got is $40 from my parents
because my grandparents just passed away not long ago.
but had shabu shabu and ABALONE at home (:
apparently everything i have now are all new. ^^
specs, shoes, clothes, watch -
the all new me.



didn't go to school for the pass few days
not feeling well..
bet the others were talking bad about me.. (:

HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!!! :D

10 more days to valentine's day....
will be celebrating valentine's day alone again.
i've always wanted a gift or present from a guy.
if i ever get it, i will be very happy for the rest of the day.
it just doesn't happen to me..
very envious of other girls getting gifts that cover the whole of their body
this matter has been pestering me since the day i stepped into secondary school
for my primary school is a girls school.
anyway i don't mind others making fun of me with another boy
because it lets me think that at least there's a guy just for me out there..^^

days have passed since the release of the 'O' level results.i'm feeling so lethargic maybe i haven't had a good night sleep before 24th Jan. i did fine, good enough to get into the course i want: Health sciences (Nursing). i just like science-based courses because they just suit me better..yup.
anyway i've quitted from pan pacific hotel partly because the working hours are terrible.. it's only in the evening like 5pm-11pm.. i rather work in the morning because i can work longer so it will not get very late at night to reach home..
i'm finding a job elsewhere like in Popular or Borders..
my friend said that the pay in Borders is the same as pan pacific hotel as her friend went to ask the staff there. but my mum kind of disallow me to go there to check how's the working hours and stuffs like that and says that it's far from my house or whatsoever. now she's complaining that we don't have enough money. i just want to get another job as soon as possible so i can have extra money for chinese new year.

butterflies in my stomach- that's what i'm feeling right now.
will be getting my results later at 2pm in school. oh my! i wonder what my results are going to be. i'm sure most of us will also have the same feeling as me. i told my friend to relax but i can't say it to myself... give me luck please. thanks. (:

finally i had a taste of whisky, but with a weird combination: green tea. the smell of the whisky is better than red wine and beer because it comes with a butterscotch smell. my mum don't allow me to even try but my cousin let me try a bit. he mixed a lot of green tea with only a bit of the whisky but it doesn't matter. i tried and i almost instantly hated it. it's bitter! OMG..worse than the bitter gourd. but at least i tried and i will NOT try it ever again... haha...lol. anyway a piece of advice for females: best to keep away from these alcoholic drinks because it really harm you.
lol...crap. X))

had fun in school, with the three days of orientation in millennia institute..the first day was like okay at least better than those first days in secondary one and primary one. met new friends like amanda and darylene who are also in my OG group: neutron..we had seven OGs namely: addams, barney, flintstones, neutron, jetsons, robinsons, simpsons... we had to go home later than expected on the second day at about 8.30pm...mass games, mass dance and everything..tiring of course but fun...^^ third day was fine too but we were quite high when the last event of the day starts..it's the grand 'closing' of the orientation..all the preparations for this day has paid off, all groups has their own mascots with funny costumes....hmmm.. anyway i met alot of ex-rafflesians like christiane, yiwen, eudora, randy, charlene, clara and cheng ling... was quite shocked because i thought these people are clever??? *smiles

i saw these words in vivocity:
happiness is when you think what you say or what you do are in harmony.
live well, love much, laugh often.
you can have peace of mind, improved health and an ever-increasing flow of energy.
life can be full of joy and satisfaction.
laughter is the most healthful exertion.
do you agree? :)

i think they have forgotten that i know what they are saying in cantonese. i know what they are saying, "if i want to buy things, i will have to use my own money because now that i'm working." she told him that i'm counting money to make it up to $100 but after counting i'm still left with $85. i want to save my $100 when i get my $144 today. i bought 2 pairs of court shoes which costs me about $60. now i'm only left with less than $90. but anyway i can't complain because i never work everyday. i'm really short of money!!

i'm so pissed off by her!!! she don't even know how i go for work. i've said a hundred times that i have to book my timing so as to arrange my schedule for that particular week. but she don't seemed to understand. worse still, a SL from the apaches team called me to say that there will be a christmas camp at ngee ann polytechnic on 22nd of december. she told me not to agree first because will not be sure if there's work on that day. but i know if i don't book that day, that will be alright.... the next thing is that republic polytechnic is having a open house on 15th of december and i want to go but she still gave the excuse that i have to work then it's not possible to go for it. the last thing is that yuan xing will be having her birthday party on 13th of december, i've already bought her present and i think of giving it to her on her birthday. but she still said that will not be sure if there's work on that day..wth...i don't even know what's on her mind...at first she was saying that i can try to work on anyday, then now she said earning money is more important. what's the problem with her? i don't understand..... :(
anyway i got my second pay of the month...it's only $42 but i may get more on saturday and sunday... :D

i finally got money! lol. anyway i finally know what is like to earn money and not asking for money. *laughs. i got $77.50 for a two day work from 5pm-11pm. it's quite late, but at least i'm fortunate that my father fetches me after work. hahas. xiao ling's quite jealous that i have transport home. :D the money i treated my mum to a restaurant, Just Noodles, in suntec city. spent around at least $20 then i even gave my dad $20 for dinner.. he even feels a bit embarrassed because people around us are like looking at us. :) my mum says that it's a good thing because he will not rely on us for money and not do anything to support the family....anyway my mum has been asking me the reason for working but i don't really know the reason. the only thing i know is that i want to also contribute to the family. is that a good thing? i don't know. :p

i've always thought that work was easy for a waitress. in fact it's not easy at all. my friend introduced me to a job in pan pacific hotel as a banquet waitress. i thought it may be fun and i can also earn some money when awaiting my results for the 'O's. i heard the pay's quite good : $6/hr. quite good, huh? maybe it's the pay that attracted me to this job. so i agreed with my friend that we can find a time for the interview. one day the person-in-charge called me during red camp to tell me that there will a training on 24th from 2pm-10pm. i was already so lethargic from the red camp organised by ngee ann polytechnic from 21st nov-23d nov. wow! this is the only word i can describe red camp. :) all i can say is that it rocks,man! i belong to the apaches which represents the so-called "little indians". we went to a lot of places in the polytechnic itself. as for me, i love going to the health sciences school because i would like to be a health professional in future. enough said about the red camp but if there's a camp you have to go, i would say it's red camp...
anyway back to the topic of job, i went for the training then the trainer, Ramli, said we will have a work attachment almost immediately because orientation is only about an hour. we took a tour around pan pacific hotel and some of us were quite amazed to see the insights of the grand outside of the hotel. it's really an eye-opener for some of us who came out to work for the 1st time. hahas. including me. this is 1st time i come out to work as my mum says that i should spend more time on studying. now, 'O' level's over so i can really try to work for the 1st time! lol. i look forward to it actually. :D

have you ever had a feeling of being left out?

well, i had. i was quite naive to think that i will not have this feeling when i get into secondary school. but i still get them when i'm with them. i'm, in fact, very tired of this feeling because i've been getting this feeling since the day i stepped into primary school. really feel like crying sometimes. the most frustrated thing is that whenever i try to talk to them, they always try to ignore me or pretend to talk among themselves. why? i mean, why must they do that to me? i always try to be good to them but they are still like that and when they are finished, they even pretended nothing had happened! they even asked me what had happened. what would i say? of course i say nothing happened. i really feel sad because they always act like BIG SISTER. uh-huh. **puke.