i saw these words in vivocity:
happiness is when you think what you say or what you do are in harmony.
live well, love much, laugh often.
you can have peace of mind, improved health and an ever-increasing flow of energy.
life can be full of joy and satisfaction.
laughter is the most healthful exertion.
do you agree? :)

i think they have forgotten that i know what they are saying in cantonese. i know what they are saying, "if i want to buy things, i will have to use my own money because now that i'm working." she told him that i'm counting money to make it up to $100 but after counting i'm still left with $85. i want to save my $100 when i get my $144 today. i bought 2 pairs of court shoes which costs me about $60. now i'm only left with less than $90. but anyway i can't complain because i never work everyday. i'm really short of money!!

i'm so pissed off by her!!! she don't even know how i go for work. i've said a hundred times that i have to book my timing so as to arrange my schedule for that particular week. but she don't seemed to understand. worse still, a SL from the apaches team called me to say that there will be a christmas camp at ngee ann polytechnic on 22nd of december. she told me not to agree first because will not be sure if there's work on that day. but i know if i don't book that day, that will be alright.... the next thing is that republic polytechnic is having a open house on 15th of december and i want to go but she still gave the excuse that i have to work then it's not possible to go for it. the last thing is that yuan xing will be having her birthday party on 13th of december, i've already bought her present and i think of giving it to her on her birthday. but she still said that will not be sure if there's work on that day..wth...i don't even know what's on her mind...at first she was saying that i can try to work on anyday, then now she said earning money is more important. what's the problem with her? i don't understand..... :(
anyway i got my second pay of the month...it's only $42 but i may get more on saturday and sunday... :D

i finally got money! lol. anyway i finally know what is like to earn money and not asking for money. *laughs. i got $77.50 for a two day work from 5pm-11pm. it's quite late, but at least i'm fortunate that my father fetches me after work. hahas. xiao ling's quite jealous that i have transport home. :D the money i treated my mum to a restaurant, Just Noodles, in suntec city. spent around at least $20 then i even gave my dad $20 for dinner.. he even feels a bit embarrassed because people around us are like looking at us. :) my mum says that it's a good thing because he will not rely on us for money and not do anything to support the family....anyway my mum has been asking me the reason for working but i don't really know the reason. the only thing i know is that i want to also contribute to the family. is that a good thing? i don't know. :p

i've always thought that work was easy for a waitress. in fact it's not easy at all. my friend introduced me to a job in pan pacific hotel as a banquet waitress. i thought it may be fun and i can also earn some money when awaiting my results for the 'O's. i heard the pay's quite good : $6/hr. quite good, huh? maybe it's the pay that attracted me to this job. so i agreed with my friend that we can find a time for the interview. one day the person-in-charge called me during red camp to tell me that there will a training on 24th from 2pm-10pm. i was already so lethargic from the red camp organised by ngee ann polytechnic from 21st nov-23d nov. wow! this is the only word i can describe red camp. :) all i can say is that it rocks,man! i belong to the apaches which represents the so-called "little indians". we went to a lot of places in the polytechnic itself. as for me, i love going to the health sciences school because i would like to be a health professional in future. enough said about the red camp but if there's a camp you have to go, i would say it's red camp...
anyway back to the topic of job, i went for the training then the trainer, Ramli, said we will have a work attachment almost immediately because orientation is only about an hour. we took a tour around pan pacific hotel and some of us were quite amazed to see the insights of the grand outside of the hotel. it's really an eye-opener for some of us who came out to work for the 1st time. hahas. including me. this is 1st time i come out to work as my mum says that i should spend more time on studying. now, 'O' level's over so i can really try to work for the 1st time! lol. i look forward to it actually. :D

have you ever had a feeling of being left out?

well, i had. i was quite naive to think that i will not have this feeling when i get into secondary school. but i still get them when i'm with them. i'm, in fact, very tired of this feeling because i've been getting this feeling since the day i stepped into primary school. really feel like crying sometimes. the most frustrated thing is that whenever i try to talk to them, they always try to ignore me or pretend to talk among themselves. why? i mean, why must they do that to me? i always try to be good to them but they are still like that and when they are finished, they even pretended nothing had happened! they even asked me what had happened. what would i say? of course i say nothing happened. i really feel sad because they always act like BIG SISTER. uh-huh. **puke.

long long time since i'd went online...finally today i get to edit my blog.....*shakes head*
now i'm having my prelims so i'm also slogging my head to study. but never mind i got my new phone !!! :) it's samsung SGH-L760... sleek and slim..haha.. lol..
so many things had happened recently and i'm already lazy to say everything out. but i can't wait for the graduation night that is on 14 November, at Raffles Town Club...woohoo.. :] the next day is my class's chalet... i can't wait for these two events to happen....OMG...
anyway it's time to study..so maybe another day i can then edit my blog... :(

my mom went to see a doctor today. after that we walked down to pearl's centre like the last time we went to sgh. unaware of what had happenned, a man just screamed at a woman beside him, whom is believed to be his wife, in front of everyone. although it's quite early at that time, but most of de people are opening their stores in pearl's centre so eventually a lot of them were looking at this couple. they even have 3 children by their side. this may be a very bad example for their children. we thought it was normal so we walked away as we didn't want any trouble. suddenly one of the couple's children was pushed down (i think), which made this boy cry, by another owner who was trying to open his store. what i think is that maybe this child did something to his store or was blocking his way as he's opening his shop and making him so angry. but the trouble did not end there, seeing his child being pushed down, this father wanted to beat this owner up but was punched by that guy instead. then both of them were like 'wrestling' but was intercepted by passer-bys who were telling this father that "you have children but he don't have any so don't create any trouble in a place where he knows who's the boss here. " like what typical singaporeans do, we were so excited when they wanted to beat each other up at first, but after the 'show', we all walked away talking about this incident. aren't this father silly? at least the police are not informed..or else consequences are unthinkable.. ^^

went to jurong point today at about 10 am. actually i don't go to a shopping centre that early unless for some special reasons. yesterday night the teen star @ south west crew called me up to go to the oasis room for an audition for the singing competition. i'm happy of course, but also nervous at the same time. first time getting up on stage to sing in front of others. maybe due to the nervousness, i woke up at 6.24am.. i was a bit blur but i went back to sleep because i remembered that it is still during the march holidays. by the time i reach the room, no one was there yet so i waited outside until the person-in-charge come out to call me in. people start coming in and also wait for the person-in-charge. i met a girl by the name of sangeetha from commonwealth sec. her voice is like terrific as she is from choir [not fair >.<]. another guy by the name of sandali (if i'm not wrong ) from kranji sec. he's from NCC but I'm not sure if it's land or sea. although i don't know them personally, we seemed to get along quite well. :) i asked the person-in-charge if i can be the first one to sing because i need to go back to school for my badminton camp so she said yes...after my singing, the judges said i have a good voice but i'm still not ready to really sing in front of others out there so i'm kind of 'out' from the whole of the competition eventually..but never mind, i had the experience.. :)
later after the audition, i went back to school for the last day of the badminton camp. we had a friendly match with fairfield methodist secondary school and we won [of course] which led my coach to be grinning from ear to ear. :D

I saw an auntie today boarding a bus. it seems normal right, she came from the back door! Ridiculous right?? everyone of us in the bus was like shocked, but luckily the bus driver saw her doing that and stopped the bus at a corner then confronted that auntie. she said sorry to the bus driver. I think she's a bit brainless but she doesn't admit it. by the time she went to her seat, she even pretended nothing had happened! oh what a cocky auntie! actually that's my first time meeting this kind of auntie. how can a person think this way? even fools also know that the back door is for people to alight the bus. lol.

It's such a long time since i've created a post. I wondered why my computer always have the same problem- i'm not able to access to my Internet. Even my cousin who is the computer expert can't help. I don't know what is wrong with it. My friends don't have this problem, why, of all others, my computer is the one that's always having problem? Anyway, enough of all this, i had a fun day. Mum had taken me to Fish & Co to eat the seafood lunch platter which is only $23 with 2 clam chowders and a garden salad. We also ordered a starter which is mussels in cheesy gravy. We were like so full, and honestly, the lunch is the best of all that i've eaten. It's so fabulous but of course it's fatty, especially the sauce that came with the mussels. Anyway it's QUITE costly for which we are not rich people. But it's cheaper then Sizzler and definitely Jack's Place. hmmm. I realy feel like eating it again.

i'm so unlucky today. don't know what's wrong with me. my right thumb got cut by the penknife...my right big toe & nose bleed for no reason...actually i'm supposed to go for the countdown party yesterday..but i had a stomachache..in short, i'm UNLUCKY!! :x